Charlotte Marie, pray for us.
Michael Austin, pray for us.
Margaret Rose, pray for us.
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As it occasionally happens (usually at random, and out of nowhere), I was just sitting here, living my life, and it just struck me how different my life would be if 2 of my last 3 babies had lived (Margaret would not have existed if Michael had lived, but I lost her too). Emma has her last day of swimming lessons tomorrow, and she has insisted on going to our pool to practice every day. Her enthusiasm has paid off, and she's been promoted to level 3 as of yesterday. I'm so proud of her! Hanging out at the pool every day has been nice, I guess. I've been able to read a book and a half in the last 2 weeks, and I can't remember the last time I was able to do that. However, as I was sitting by our neighborhood pool this afternoon, I was watching the other moms with their toddlers and babies. I just started thinking that if Charlotte had lived, she would be 20 months, and likely a handful at the pool. I wouldn't be able to just sit back and read books. I'd probably be in that cold pool with both kids every day. I'd also be heading quickly into the uncomfortable phase of pregnancy if Margaret had lived, and getting the nursery ready by now if Michael had lived. I doubt I would have been brave enough (crazy enough?) to drive all the way to Maryland with toddler Charlotte and a big, pregnant belly. So, we probably wouldn't have been able to see my family out there. I also doubt I'd be so willing to drive as much as I do to visit friends and family in other states. But, I WOULD be enjoying the pre-two-year-old cute phase with Charlotte, and excitedly awaiting the arrival of Michael or Margaret. I would be enjoying watching Emma be the amazing big sister that I know she was always meant to be. I would be so busy keeping up with Charlotte and Emma, I would be a little anxious about getting the nursery ready in time, but it would be such a sweet time, I wouldn't mind. I would be having Charlotte feel the little kicks from Michael or Margaret, and getting her excited to be a big sister. I would be getting a little nervous about starting back to school with Emma with a more active Charlotte, and a baby arriving. I would probably start school very soon to give us more time to take off with the baby. I can't even imagine everything we'd be doing or experiencing as a family if 2 of my last 3 babies had lived. I'm sure it would be some kind of wonderful craziness, though! I'm happy to report that while thinking about my babies will always reveal a longing and emptiness, that it no longer comes with tears and despair. Just a reminder for myself of the wonderful reunion I'll have in Heaven one day, and encouragement to stay the course, so I can experience it. <3 <3 <3
Charlotte Marie, pray for us. Michael Austin, pray for us. Margaret Rose, pray for us.
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I woke up today, to the news about what happened in Dallas, Texas last night. If you didn't hear about it, apparently at least one gunman used a sniper to kill several police officers after a seemingly peaceful protest of some kind. I don't know about you, but I am so TIRED of constantly hearing about some massive tragedy or near tragedy or terrorist attack in this country. One of my friends posted something about a Facebook fast for peace and our nation. I need a break from all the tragedy anyways, so I totally stole that idea, and I started my fast this morning. Every time I want to log onto Facebook, or even think about it, really, I pray an Our Father and a Hail Mary instead. All I can do is pray, anyway. Maybe, just maybe, my few prayers and sacrifice will make some kind of difference. So, if we're friends on Facebook, and you're wondering where I've gone, now you know. I'm planning on staying off for 40 days, with the only exception being if something big happens in my life.
Stay safe friends, and God bless! Dana So apparently, only the pictures and my last paragraph survived from writing to publishing. *sigh* I HATE when that happens... Okay, I'll try to remember all that I shared before... My amazing husband and I went to Chicago one week ago today for our 10th anniversary. We started off by going to a FABULOUS, romantic (and, yes, very expensive) dinner at a place called Maple & Ash. Apparently, it has only been open for about 9 months. The atmosphere was only surpassed by the food. It was DELICIOUS! After dinner, I asked the hostess to take our picture together. One of my new favorite pictures! After dinner, we went to see the Blue Man Group. It. Was. HILARIOUS!!! Totally family friendly, and hilarious! I highly recommend it, if you get the chance to go. There were 2 or 3 Shrek-type innuendos (aimed at adults, but done in a way that kids wouldn't understand), but they were so fast, and well done, I don't think any kid would have "gotten" them. I honestly could not have asked for a more perfect night away with my wonderful husband! It was just what we needed, and a lovely 10th anniversary celebration! :-)
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