I'm just so tired of this emotional roller coaster. I was totally fine with not getting pregnant this cycle, and had actually planned on avoiding pregnancy this month so that my new Napro dr could check my progesterone level with no urgency, and then I had that moment of weakness, followed by ALL those pregnancy symptoms, and had resigned myself to getting pregnant before I was really ready, only to be disappointed, let down, crushed, and get my hopes dashed all over again. And this, folks, is why I practically get panic attacks at the thought of taking a pregnancy test. I wish I never had to take another one again, but my lovely insurance company has decided that they won't cover my heparin until I get a positive pregnancy test. So, I have to test to make them happy, or pay $160 a month for heparin (instead of like $30 a month when they're covering it). My Napro also needs me to test, so they know when to start closely monitoring my progesterone levels. Well, I'll have at least, what? 3 weeks or so before I start the crazy cycle all over again? :'-( I wish I could just get off the roller coaster for awhile. But, no can do. Nobody's getting any younger, and if we want a baby, this is what we have to do. So, if you wouldn't mind saying a prayer or two for my sanity, that would be awesome.
Thanks,
Dana